I'm not just "that girl"....

Ever felt like everyone was labeling you? Like you are known as "that girl" or "that guy" but never as YOU? I feel that way all the time. I am a singer, and not to toot my own horn, but "toot toot", I am good. I have won a national singing and performance competetion before. But I don't sing because I want to be the best, I sing because it is one of the few things that makes me truely happy.

I was very lucky growing up. I didn't have that "STAGE MOM", just a mom who wanted me to do whatever made me the happiest. If that was singing, then sing baby, but if it's something else, then do that! That made singing even more fun. But, through the years, I started feeling like I was just "that girl who sings".

In school, I was always made fun of because I was "fat!" (I am fat, but I'm happy and comfortable in my skin, so what does it matter?) I was tormented and because of that I hated my life. I was so depressed all the time. Then I was asked to sing in front of the school, and I rocked! After that, no one made fun of my any more. People were nice to me. By that point, I didn't care anymore. I realized how two faced people could be.

All the time people are calling me. People I don't even know. "Jacey, we need someone to sing. Jacey can you sing for us? Jacey please help us and sing a song this day." I've had enough!!

I'm not just a singer! I'm a sister, a daughter, an Aunt, a writer, an actress, a friend, and most importantly, a PERSON!!!! I don't just sing and go to bed, sing and go to bed, sing and go to bed! I have a life! GIVE ME A BREAK!!!!

And then, to make matters worse, when I tell people no, they try to make me feel bad and guily about it! Why should I feel guilty about it! I shouldn't be made to feel guilty about it because I did nothing wrong in telling you no!

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE TO SING. It is my passion for life. But I love to do other things too. I love to spend time with my family. I love to go to the movies.

I see other people have the same thing happen to them. My mom works for the IET department at a university, and people from work see her in Wal-mart and ask her questions about their computers. My oldest sister is an accountant, and when people see her outside the office, they ask her questions about their taxes. My other sister works as a social worker in the healthcare field, and people are all the time asking her about Medicare!

WE ARE MORE THAN JUST "THOSE GIRLS!!!!!"

Every person has more to their identity that just one thing, but there is always one thing that seems to define a person.

I guess for me it is singing.

And I guess I will always be "that girl."

Oh Well. I guess my quote for the day will have to be "Beneath the make-up and behind the smile, I'm just a girl who wishes for the world" Marilyn Monroe